Drug Rehab - Not Just A Weekend Retreat

I have been posting a lot on the Sober Recovery Forum and wanted to share a couple of the things I posted there, here...because I am too tired to write anything new :)

This post was in response to someone asking for help with their recovery and how to get real with it.

"One thing I have found, and this sucks, is that we all have our own bottoms and tolerance to pain. For some of us, a loss of a job or the hurt on our loved ones faces is enough to snap us straight and give us the desire needed. For me, it wasn't that simple. I went as far down as I could. Gutter level. Lost it all and had a death wish. It took a lot of attempts and a lot of destruction before the pain of using was greater then the pain of staying clean. I held on to that and it worked. I remembered my lowest lows and didnt want to go back. I knew, I couldnt use successfully and eventually, the end was always the same. It was a Black Hole full of pain. When I wanted to use, I trained my mind to not think about the beginning of the binges and obsess on the first hour or two of being high, but I played out the tapes to how they all ended. With me, broke, alone and hopeless. In pain.

Overtime, and by working a program and staying clean, my life got better and I when the thought of using crossed my mind, I would think of all I had in my life now, that I would lose, and I would also think about how it all ends. See, they say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. I use to think the binges would have a happy ending, but that was insane.

One thing, I have seen from going to meeting, is that you don't have to go as far down as me. If you can understand a fraction of what I am saying, and if you can admit that what is in me is in you and that your ends could be the same as mine. Then you dont have to go as far down the rabbit hole, you just have to believe us when we say, it doesn't get any better the deeper you go and dont let us pass you by on the way back up. Just trust us and come back up with us.

but, if your like me then you suffer from the thought of you thinkin your different then me and you can handle the rabbit hole and you will go down deeper just to see.

I use to sell crack.I had one client who went from being a happy married couple, business, kids, home...to losing the business, the kids, and the home. They started off shop lifting to pay for the crack, and withing a couple of months, she began blowing people for 20 bucks just to buy them another hit.

They went from your next door neighbour to a crack ***** in a couple of months.

I seen a grey cup champion football player sell the Championship ring off his finger for crack. This was someones son, someone who dreamed of being a football star.Someone who made it to the top of his Game in Canada, and he gave all of his childhood dreams for one more hit on the pipe.

Are you any different then us?

Get honest with yourself and look at where your life is going. Don't try and make a Anthony Robins Moment and Positive think your self to a better life. Its BS.Each day you use, your life is degrading and take an honest look at where its going.Come out of the rabbit hole. Trust us until you can trust yourself."